Tag Archives: Stare

Inside

In a distance so close it made me feel strangely comfortable,

In a moment of nothing but bliss, I looked into your eyes,

I noticed how often they change colour in different lights,

I also noticed how bad I wanted you, but couldn’t have you.

 

That accidental brush against my shoulder, it stirs me inside,

All that hoping and wishing, it drives me crazy inside,

Sometimes it’s easier not to look your way, for it breaks my heart inside,

That’s how I feel, that’s exactly how I feel inside.

A Day With You

I love your name, I love your smile,

I simply love the way you are,

I can’t stare at you for too long because I’d probably fall into deep,

You speak with such softness, which makes me want to melt,

I think if we spent a day together, we’d eat McDonald’s soft serves all day,

We’d laugh as though we always knew each other, we may just even dance,

In the moonlight, you’d twirl me around,

My laughter nonchalantly chasing the wind,

It’s soft and gentle, and for the first time in a long time,

I feel at peace with myself.

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Maybe in different worlds and in different times

Please don’t stare at me

Because I might just want to run away,

Away with the wind, and into your arms,

I say that now, but then I think twice,

As there is someone waiting for you, and it’s not me,

So for God’s sake, don’t look my way, and I won’t look yours.

 

For each time you do,

My heart feels heavy, as if it doesn’t know what to say,

It makes me feel like it’s raining, and all I want to do is stay,

They say, one’s eyes are a window to their soul,

Beauty, constraint, and longing, that’s what I see in yours,

They speak to me as though we know each other,

But maybe in different worlds and in different times.

 

With a stare too long, I look away,

A strong gust of wind awakens me, it frees me,

As it gently whispers what’s true,

That I’m not yours, and your not mine,

Maybe in different worlds and in different times,

I’ll once again notice that stare, that once gave light to this lonely heart of mine.

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Be Fierce like Beyonce

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Imagine you go on your day doing your normal routine whether it be work, uni, or just something to pass time. By chance you come across a familiar face in a sea of nameless faces. The world stops for about a second. It’s someone who once used to mean a lot to you. You stare at their features and remind yourself of that very first time you ‘fell’. It was a time that made you feel happy. For once, you didnt have to try so hard to feel happy. I think it’s overrated if I call it love, so I’ll just use the term bliss. Days pass, weeks turn into months, and eventually that moment passes. It becomes nothing but remnants of the past.

Face to face, you stare into their eyes, realising you no longer feel the same way; that your now different in some way you can’t explain. No longer young and naive. You’re stronger. More of a women. More beautiful than before, and fierce like Beyonce. No longer afraid of being alone. No longer believing in the fairytale that one day some guy with the alias, Prince Charming, will sweep you off your feet. But rather you’ve gained a sense of what it feels like to be whole as a person. That is, to find the true meaning of what it’s like to genuinely feel happy single. With a smile, you realise that you’re in a better place now. I believe that being single at 21 is not a bad thing. You can do what you want when you want. You can figure out who you want to be without having to depend on someone else. I’ve grown up a lot in the duration of a year and a bit. I’ve built character.

I’ve always been the girl who rarely dates. That friend you have who gives the best relationship advice, but still remains single. Even though “suitors” (as my mum likes to say) have come into the picture, most of the time I feel like they are just not the right fit. Then one day, my world got turned upside down. I met someone. All these feelings I never thought I had suddenly came out. I was definitely high on infatuation. I remember telling myself, “It’s finally my turn. I’ve waited so long.” But with a blink of an eye, I fell from cloud 9. It wasn’t graceful. I think when you feel so strongly about someone and suddenly it ends, you leave a piece of yourself with them. That piece allows you find a new piece that fills the hole that was created, and soon enough after nights of endless tears, you gradually transform out of your cocoon into a beautiful butterfly. A butterfly that is not afraid to spread their wings and fly high. You feel new again. One thing I’ve learnt is that the people who give you the most pain, are also the ones who teach you the largest life lessons. Yesterday, I accidentally bumped into that ‘someone’. Through a haiku, I will share with you how I felt in that unexpected moment:

Accidentally we meet again

That face I once adored
Reminds me of the old me
Oh how I’ve changed

Yours truly, from a 21-year-old girl who loves to sing Girl on Fire by Alicia Keys.

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