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Maybe in different worlds and in different times

Please don’t stare at me

Because I might just want to run away,

Away with the wind, and into your arms,

I say that now, but then I think twice,

As there is someone waiting for you, and it’s not me,

So for God’s sake, don’t look my way, and I won’t look yours.

 

For each time you do,

My heart feels heavy, as if it doesn’t know what to say,

It makes me feel like it’s raining, and all I want to do is stay,

They say, one’s eyes are a window to their soul,

Beauty, constraint, and longing, that’s what I see in yours,

They speak to me as though we know each other,

But maybe in different worlds and in different times.

 

With a stare too long, I look away,

A strong gust of wind awakens me, it frees me,

As it gently whispers what’s true,

That I’m not yours, and your not mine,

Maybe in different worlds and in different times,

I’ll once again notice that stare, that once gave light to this lonely heart of mine.

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A healthier me

At the beginning of the year, I told myself “2013 is my year!” I’m 21-years-old. This is a milestone in my life, and I want to remember it with bright colours and a smile. I want to remember it as one of the best years of my life. This year and for all the years of my life, I will be the best version of myself. I’m working towards a healthier, more fit, beautiful and radiant me.

I’ve never ran in a marathon. I used to be like the majority of the crowd, telling myself I’d rather spend my time doing other things, which usually turns into settling on taking in the persona of a couch potato. In a few months, I’ll be running in The Color Run™. This is a one of a kind experience that is less about speed and more about enjoying a colour crazy day with like-minded amazing people I like to call my friends. I’m pumped! This is a wonderful first step.

Yesterday, I took my first step training for this marathon. According to my Up band by Jawbone, which tracks my steps, I managed to run 4.68 km in 37 min! I felt really good after that run because it was such a struggle to get me in my running shoes and out the door in the first place. As usual, my mind has quite a crazy personality. It always over-analyses every thing! It leaves me in a stir a lot of the time, but I’m working on managing my thought forms and processes for the better. It’s important to channel out those repetitive unnecessary and unwanted thoughts that linger in the back of your mind. They only leave you obsessing over ‘nothing’, rather than focusing in on the present, on reality, which is what’s important. Be aware that these thoughts do not add value to your life, rather they instil fear of achieving greatness and prevent you from becoming the best version of yoursef. As the saying goes, you are your worst critic. My internal thoughts went something like this, “Gotta study. Should be studying. It’s getting dark outside. Maybe I won’t…no, just go! Just do it.”

In life, you just have to keep going. When my brain goes back to it’s default setting of over-analysing, I command my brain to stop by telling myself, “Just do it!” I’m improving with time. It’s ok to have a few slip ups. It’s always important to reset your expectations and remind yourself that you’re only human. Mistakes will happen, but what’s important is that you’ve learnt from those mistakes and that you get up, rising higher than you did before. Soar. Don’t be afraid. I hope today I’ve at least inspired one person in the blogging world to take on their fears full throttle. Let me know if that’s you! I’d love to hear from you.

Here’s a photo I took of my running trail with words I keep core to my soul:

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Yours truly, from a 21-year-old girl who believes that there’s hope for all of us. No one else will believe in you, unless you believe in yourself first.