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Indescribable

Once in a while…ok that’s a lie,

Constantly…that’s more like it

You’re in my thoughts,

I just want to hold you under the dark night sky,

To laugh, to live, to just be in that moment,

In almost-lovers eyes, we’ll stare at what we could have been.

 

I can’t describe the way I feel when I’m around you,

I feel impulsive, I feel like I want to be let go,

I know what you want –

A beautiful woman wrapped around your arms,

With soft kisses as sweet as candy,

Like memories that never fade,

Like a music box that continuously plays.

 

I hardly see you now and I know this is the way things should be,

It’s what’s best for us, but maybe in a different lifetime,

When we become what they call ‘grown ups’,

We’ll decide to rebel against the world,

Against the pain, the worry and the uncertainty that comes along with youth,

With growing up and maturing,

With falling in and out of love,

With knowing what you want and don’t want,

Through figuring out the person you’ve become.

 

I can’t help the way I’m drawn to you, it’s all that non-verbal shit,

The way you look at me, the way you and I know what we’re both thinking,

I’d honestly rather forget,

But your words say one thing, and your eyes say another,

All I really need to do is look into them, that’s where I find my answers,

There’s really no need to ask, yet I always think,

I think and think and think.

 

It’s because there’s something between us,

Some call it chemistry, it’s some sort of stupid spark,

I don’t get it, I honestly don’t get you,

But one day I will, and one day we’ll get carried away,

In an indescribable moment, that just feels right,

When things that didn’t make sense before finally do,

And you realise, all you needed to do was wait,

To be patient, to be kind, to be rest assured that thing will work itself out.

 

 

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Inside

In a distance so close it made me feel strangely comfortable,

In a moment of nothing but bliss, I looked into your eyes,

I noticed how often they change colour in different lights,

I also noticed how bad I wanted you, but couldn’t have you.

 

That accidental brush against my shoulder, it stirs me inside,

All that hoping and wishing, it drives me crazy inside,

Sometimes it’s easier not to look your way, for it breaks my heart inside,

That’s how I feel, that’s exactly how I feel inside.

A Day With You

I love your name, I love your smile,

I simply love the way you are,

I can’t stare at you for too long because I’d probably fall into deep,

You speak with such softness, which makes me want to melt,

I think if we spent a day together, we’d eat McDonald’s soft serves all day,

We’d laugh as though we always knew each other, we may just even dance,

In the moonlight, you’d twirl me around,

My laughter nonchalantly chasing the wind,

It’s soft and gentle, and for the first time in a long time,

I feel at peace with myself.

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The wrong girl’s heart

A shy wave and a slight smile,

It made me feel as though I could fly,

You had me then on that summer day,

You put my heart in some sort of dismay.

 

We’d look at each other, but never speak,

One day, some day,

I’d say, we’ll find a way,

But that hope in my mind slowly slipped away,

For I saw you with her, your arms tightly around her,

You kissed her forehead, and I think you were in bliss,

What can I say, that kiss made me see,

You clearly gave me a miss.

 

Your eyes don’t lie, and all I can do is sigh,

For I think you’ve won the wrong girl’s heart,

What can I do, please let me be,

For all I can say is, I’m happy for you.

 

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Be Fierce like Beyonce

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Imagine you go on your day doing your normal routine whether it be work, uni, or just something to pass time. By chance you come across a familiar face in a sea of nameless faces. The world stops for about a second. It’s someone who once used to mean a lot to you. You stare at their features and remind yourself of that very first time you ‘fell’. It was a time that made you feel happy. For once, you didnt have to try so hard to feel happy. I think it’s overrated if I call it love, so I’ll just use the term bliss. Days pass, weeks turn into months, and eventually that moment passes. It becomes nothing but remnants of the past.

Face to face, you stare into their eyes, realising you no longer feel the same way; that your now different in some way you can’t explain. No longer young and naive. You’re stronger. More of a women. More beautiful than before, and fierce like Beyonce. No longer afraid of being alone. No longer believing in the fairytale that one day some guy with the alias, Prince Charming, will sweep you off your feet. But rather you’ve gained a sense of what it feels like to be whole as a person. That is, to find the true meaning of what it’s like to genuinely feel happy single. With a smile, you realise that you’re in a better place now. I believe that being single at 21 is not a bad thing. You can do what you want when you want. You can figure out who you want to be without having to depend on someone else. I’ve grown up a lot in the duration of a year and a bit. I’ve built character.

I’ve always been the girl who rarely dates. That friend you have who gives the best relationship advice, but still remains single. Even though “suitors” (as my mum likes to say) have come into the picture, most of the time I feel like they are just not the right fit. Then one day, my world got turned upside down. I met someone. All these feelings I never thought I had suddenly came out. I was definitely high on infatuation. I remember telling myself, “It’s finally my turn. I’ve waited so long.” But with a blink of an eye, I fell from cloud 9. It wasn’t graceful. I think when you feel so strongly about someone and suddenly it ends, you leave a piece of yourself with them. That piece allows you find a new piece that fills the hole that was created, and soon enough after nights of endless tears, you gradually transform out of your cocoon into a beautiful butterfly. A butterfly that is not afraid to spread their wings and fly high. You feel new again. One thing I’ve learnt is that the people who give you the most pain, are also the ones who teach you the largest life lessons. Yesterday, I accidentally bumped into that ‘someone’. Through a haiku, I will share with you how I felt in that unexpected moment:

Accidentally we meet again

That face I once adored
Reminds me of the old me
Oh how I’ve changed

Yours truly, from a 21-year-old girl who loves to sing Girl on Fire by Alicia Keys.

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