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Our Moment

Sometimes I still think of you, the one with the green eyes,

The person who believed in me, when I doubted myself,

You have many dreams, and I believe you’ll go far,

I hope one day you’ll think of me, and smile,

We carry on with our day to day lives,

We are in our twenties and we still have a lot to learn,

To be young and reckless, to be bold and courageous,

If life is said to be full of moments, then I know our moment came,

It also passed, along with the whispers of the wind,

Though you’ll always have a special place

Right here, in this beating heart of mine.

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Donna takes on a fashion internship

Hello! I’ll say that again because it feels so good to be back in the blogging world! Hello! To all my followers, I genuinely apologise for being away so long from blogging. I had a lot going on. My 5 week uni break, which I was looking forward to and had all these amazing plans for, was turned into a 1.5 week break. Have you ever had to sit a supplementary exam? It sux! They postponed my exam by 3 weeks! Thank God it’s over now. In the end I faced my fears of sitting an exam I previously failed. When you do your best, the end result always pays off. I also joined a local taekwondo club to brush up on my basic technique, improve my fitness and meet some new awesome people! The taekwondo club that I normally go to at uni takes forever to get to since I live so far away. However, I miss the friends I made there a lot! 

I’ve left the most juiciest news for last – today was my first day as a fashion intern. Hold your horses, I didn’t completely drop out of my combined Science/Nursing degree, I decided now since I’m a part time student this Sem, I might as well use my free time productively. My first day was a bit of a roller coaster. I think it’s always hard treading on unfamiliar territory. I met this lovely girl fresh out of high school named, E, who was also interning. It was her 6th week there. She was sweet, we bonded over a lot of things – part-time jobs, fashion, what we want in life. Typically girl stuff.

 

When I think about it, I did quite a bit today – I steamed, prepared clothes and accessories, hung stuff, organised the show room so that look books matched the little sections for each particular designer. All in all, it wasn’t too bad of a day. But I did do a lot of thinking on the 1 hour train ride home. I remember thinking to myself, is this really for me? I kept repeating it too! My gut tells me I need a bit more time. I need to get used to the ins and outs of that fashion agency, the people there, my role as an intern, and just learn as much as I can. I need to get used to the feeling, and soon enough I won’t be considered ‘new’ anymore. I’ve also reset my expectations. I no longer have any. That way you don’t ask for too much, and get more than you bargained for in return. If I could take away one lesson that I learnt today, it’s that to be successful, you have to be prepared to start at the bottom. And that’s exactly what I’m doing, therefore I believe I’m on the right path.

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I like to  be surrounded by those who love me,

Those who I can be myself around,

And those who just ‘get’ me.

 

Tonight I ate at my favourite restaurant in Sydney called Chat Thai. I chose the roast duck marinated in tamarind sauce with some good ‘ol rice. And also a strawberry blend, just to be fancy. I’ve spent some pretty special occasions there – my 20th birthday, a catch-up with old friends from First Year, who showed me how much I really have changed since then, a get-together with a cousin and her family that I hadn’t seen in years, and tonight, I had a pre-Melbourne trip discussion with one of my best friends, M. She has a high-pitched voice and likes to tell everyone where she’s from (Azerbaijan),  but most importantly, she is genuine and warm-hearted. I feel like myself around her, and she makes me want to be a better person. Having that one friend that you can spill all your worries to in times of troubled water is important because they make you feel like, “It’s ok, I’m here”. If you don’t have someone like that in your life, then be that person for someone else because when you make someone happy, happiness comes back to you in so many other ways you didn’t know possible.

Life is a broken road that leads you to exactly where you should be

The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination. – Don Williams, Jr.

Sometimes, we focus too much on where we want to be, rather than where we are at present. Don’t forget to smell the roses along the way and enjoy the ride. Otherwise, you’ll just wake up one day and realise where has all my time gone? Have I wasted my life? Stay happy and remember, life is a long road. It’s full of U-turns, stops, give ways, ditches and speed signs that make you go slower and others that allow you to speed up. Learn to enjoy the ride.

Mindset is your most powerful tool

Happiness and success begins with change. Change that you create for yourself. Don’t wait around, hoping that the solution to your problem will come eventually. You’ll just get more frustrated and unhappy, I can assure you. Today, I did Krav Maga for the first time. It’s a type of tactical combat fighting. What I learnt was that, as humans, we have a tendency to get carried away by intense emotions such as anxiety, anger and frustration. We can not control our emotions, but what we can control is what we choose to focus on. I’ve realised that I have a tendency to focus on negative emotions. Therefore, today marks the day that I conquer my emotions and focus on goals that I set myself. In particular, I have a supplementary exam coming up, so I shall choose to focus on getting through the exam by focusing on what I know, writing that down, and visualising myself passing this subject.

So to all you out there, take that first step because new solutions to that ‘thing’ stressing you out (you know the one in the back of your head) will only come your way when you change your mindset.

Life is short

This looks like a page full of words, but every sentence is beautifully crafted with preciseness and meaning. So, read between the lines and you won’t get lost. 😉

Life won’t wait for you

It’s just one of those days when you want to put pen to paper and pour your sorrows away. I like to think of my blog as something that gives me inspiration and hope that there are better days ahead when I’m feeling down. Throughout my life I have kept journals. As I got older, I told myself I wanted to write only about happy moments because quite frankly I didn’t want to read journal entries years down the track and think, was I really that lonely and sad as a teenager? But you know what, life is full of ups and downs. That’s why I’m writing my first vulnerable post on my blog.

I think from time to time, we all like to reminisce about the good ol’ days. However, time has a way of tainting those memories by being subjective. Our mind wants to remember just the good stuff, so we don’t have to feel the pain that we once endured through challenging experiences and obstacles. Relationships – family, friends, co-workers. They all make their mark on you. I once had a friendship with a guy. We were the best of friends. We did everything together. I think for the longest time he had a secret crush on me, but I friend-zoned him and took him for granted. As that song by Counting Crows goes, “you don’t know what you’ve got til its gone” (Big Yellow Taxi). And that’s exactly what happened, I missed him as soon as he went away. The difficult thing is something inside of me doesn’t want to let go of those memories, but I know that things will never be the same because life has changed the both of us in so many ways. We are on different walks of life. I know you can say all those cliche tag lines like “if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be’ or “God will find a way”. I’m not sure how to feel or what to say, but I guess I just need to let it be. For those days are long gone. Most people refer to me as a ‘pocket full of sunshine’, their ‘go-to gal’, that person who just always seems to be happy when they walk into a room. But just like anyone else I have my fair share of insecurities, doubts, thoughts that I just can’t get out of my head, and desires that just feel so far away. I think what I’m trying to say is that, inside my heart, there’s some kind of longing like a piece of a puzzle that needs to be found. I’m wise enough to know now, that it’s up to me to fill that whole and no one else can fill the void for me. It’s up to me. Just like anything else worthwhile in life, it takes a process of focus, determination and hard work to get the results you want. So I’m here writing to tell myself, “Good luck and congratulations to taking your first step to finding happiness again”. Let this new chapter in your life begin.

Yours truly, from a 21-year-old girl who has realised that, you are the one who decides whether you stay unhappy, or find ways to find happiness.

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