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I love your name, I love your smile,
I simply love the way you are,
I can’t stare at you for too long because I’d probably fall into deep,
You speak with such softness, which makes me want to melt,
I think if we spent a day together, we’d eat McDonald’s soft serves all day,
We’d laugh as though we always knew each other, we may just even dance,
In the moonlight, you’d twirl me around,
My laughter nonchalantly chasing the wind,
It’s soft and gentle, and for the first time in a long time,
I feel at peace with myself.
I felt like I needed to breathe. You know just take in the air and feel carefree, even if it’s just for a few minutes. Just to clear your mind. Just to give you a moment of serenity. Peace of mind. Bliss. And I did just that today on my lunch break. And now I feel so blessed and grateful for everything I have. Ready to get on with my day. Ready to smile again.
“Do you fall in love often? Yes often. With a view, with a book, with a dog, a cat, with numbers, with friends, with complete strangers, with nothing at all.” — Jeanette Winterson (Gut Symmetries)
These days people are fixated with falling in love, but really it is the idea of falling in love that they are obsessed with. Words are powerful. If you learn to read between the lines, you’re not only encapsulated by the meaning within those words, but you also realise that they offer you new perspective. I love this quote because today I have realised that falling in love does not necessarily mean finding Mr. Right/’The One’/Tuxedo Mask/your ‘other half’ or whatever you wish to call them. Instead, falling in love, for me at least, means finding what it is your heart is searching for through the beauty hidden in this crazy world of ours. In my 21 years of existence, I have realised that I have fallen in love countless times, with not only people, but pets I’ve had through the years, beautifully crafted poetry, cute things, weird things, and most recently, myself.
Just some thoughts I’d like to share because I’m feeling quite poetic and I’d really like to share. Self-pity makes you feel worse. If you focus on what you have, then you will never be without. For all those hopeless romantics out there, you can’t hurry love. For every thing has its place in time. Patience is a virtue, and if you don’t have it, then you can certainly train your brain. It allows you to find peace within, so that whatever you have is enough. If you’re scared you’ll never find love, then don’t be. For good things come to those who wait. Love comes from within, that is, learning to love yourself first. Find your wings, and you will not need the wind to lift you up. Find your soul, and maybe you will touch others. For you are strong, and maybe you just need to find that long lost soul hidden under all the rubble and scars of past experiences and wishful thinking.
Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realise why it never worked out with anyone else.
Last night I flipped through the pages of my journal and I managed to find this message (above) that I had written to myself a while back. Then and there I decided to write a letter in my journal to someone that I miss. Someone who I share a lot of memories and inside jokes with. Someone who I’ve grown up with. Someone who just ‘gets me’. When I think of this person, I just imagine myself leaning on their shoulder while they have their arm wrapped around me, while we are both enjoying the tranquility and serenity of silence. It’s that feeling you have when you understand what the other person is feeling, and there’s just no need for words. I wouldn’t trade that feeling for anything else in the world. I call it bliss.
As a woman, the world we live in is full of stereotypes, expectations, and unfortunately limitations; limitations that are hidden from us in society as best as possible. But those limitations are to be challenged. There was a time, as late as the early 20th Century, when women were not allowed to vote, nor be allowed to receive an education. Growing up, I thought that men and woman were equal in this world, that I had the same opportunities and quality of life as the boy sitting next to me in class. But then I think of all those times in PE class, when I’d kick some poor boy’s ass in sport, and his friends would make remarks such as, “You got beaten by a girl.”
The progress of equality is nowhere near where it should be. I am lucky that my parents migrated from the Philippines, for a better life for my brother and I. I am a daughter, a sister and a friend to many girls who are just like me, that is, trying to find their place in the world. I may not know what career I want to have in the future, but I have a sense of what kind of woman I want to be – beautiful, strong, and independent. I want to inspire others to be the best versions of themselves. There’s a long road ahead of me, and I’m sure it’s full of challenges. However, if there is one thing I am sure of, it is that, I have a bright and colourful future ahead of me. Or at least, that is what I keep true to my heart. If you are a woman, no matter what age, race, or religion, I want you to challenge these limitations; for I have never met a woman who is not strong. Live the life you want to have.
In the words of Ghandi, “to call woman the weaker sex is a libel; it is man’s injustice to woman. If by strength is meant brute strength, then, indeed, is woman less brute than man. If by strength is meant moral power, then woman is immeasurably man’s superior.”